Thursday, May 12, 2016

send me, I'll go

"He who calls you is faithful; He will surely do it." 
1 Thessalonians 5:24

On December 18, 1996 a beautiful little girl was born into this world in the
busy city of Miami, Florida. That girl was none other than mua. A couple of years later her parents moved to Charlottesville, Virginia. Your extra basic/preppy/southern small town. While I've had my struggles with "fitting in" to the culture here, I've had many great moments! I've had much success, much joy, and much adventure! 

Over the past two years (since I graduated high school in May 2014:) I have been learning so much about who I am and who God has called me to be. It's been amazing. I've done so. many. things. I've prayed many prayers. I've asked God to show me the way. I've questioned whether or not I'm even meant to go to a 4-year college! I don't think that university is for everyone or that's it's a necessary thing to be successful in life. 


Oh man oh man oh man. Trust me. I know that what I'm about to say makes me sound like a totally crazy person. God has graciously and patiently watched me wander and float these past two years. Through it I've learned much about commitment and establishing roots in Christ.
I'm excited about committing to finishing by bachelor's degree at Southeastern University and making a return to my birth-state of Florida. 
Here's the radical part: Even though I've never toured the school I know that this is where God wants me to be for the next few years. 


God is calling me to do things with my life that I never imagined I would be doing. He's aligning my thoughts and desire with the ones that He has for my life. 

Friends, I have never felt so much peace about a decision.
I have felt much resistance and much doubt..at some points it feels as though I'm fighting a battle and I know that I am fighting one spiritually. My heart is still and at peace. 



There's a scripture that I love that says
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?' And I said, 'Here am I. Send me!'"
Isaiah 6:8

Yes, I realize I am totally taking this scripture out of context, but I love that last part..."Here am I. Send me!" I feel like God is definitely saying, "Okay, Lily. I'm sending you to go back to school to be trained up even more!" It's a little scary because the spirit filled part of me wants to jump all in while the human nature part says, "Chill, Lily! Let's analyze how this decision might affect your independence. How much money does that cost? You're not even good at that so why bother?! You're going to lose everything you've built in Charlottesville."

Guys..it freaks. me. out. that I have to take math classes again!! It's 100% scary that I have to leave behind the my friend group, my immediate family, my work. I am trusting that by obeying the Lord's direction for my life that everything will be not only be okay but that it'll be the most fulfilling thing ever. I'm trusting that so far I've built my roots in Him and not in my own vanity. 

I've realized that my life is so not about me. It's about building the kingdom. It's about asking God where He wants me now and next and saying, "Okay!" And not only saying yes, but actually taking action even if I'm in a season of waiting. 

So here's to saying saying "Yes, I'll go!" to Southeastern. I have great expectation that God will teach me, grow me, use me, ground me, and so much more through this experience! 

xo,
lilylove9620



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