Wednesday, February 24, 2016

When you're battling between good things happening while experiencing troubling times

Long title..I know. But you know those moments..or days, or weeks actually, where you're just not feeling it. It seems like everything is bringing you down. You feel sadness, down, etc. YET good things keep happening to you! It's can be SO hard to understand, I know!

To be honest the past couple of weeks have been very cloudy and dull. I asked God to close the doors in certain areas of my life and to please shut the ones that I couldn't see needed to be closed. As soon as I prayed that, I kid you not those prayers were literally answered. God is God and I'm human and while I did mean that prayer, I wasn't expecting it. I wasn't expecting that the doors I that were wide open and the doors that I'd propped open myself (thinking that I was some amazing go-getter) to be slammed shut in my face. I'm tellin ya..I experienced all the feels. 

I've always said that I'm not one for crying, but I've cried way more than I care to admit in the past two weeks. Yet through the pain and desperation, I've felt the sensation of peace and joy. I keep trying to push them down because, well hello, for some reason it's easier to be sad and negative (although apparently it takes more muscles to frown). My soul agrees that these doors needed to be shut, but oh my little beating heart has been confused.

BUT GOD IS STILL GOD! He is so good. While I've been experiencing these troubling times, He has also opened the doors in areas of my life I didn't think needed to be open, in areas where I've doubted, in areas where I feel like I fail. In one day, even though I didn't feel like I was at my best, I still had 3 different doors open. I was blown away by the grace I received that day. 

I was watching a video from Alex Beadon and she was saying how "the more opportunities you take/make/break/fail at/etc, the more you learn and are able to experience success." Life is like this: You have an endless supply of basketballs and if you only give yourself 5 shots to experience "good breaks" or success and you don't make any of those shots, you're going to feel like a failure because you haven't allowed yourself to keep shooting.

Too many times we think we're only meant to be in one place for the rest of our lives. We think that we only have a set number of times to succeed at something. The hard, cold truth is that not everything you try your hand at is going to flourish. By testing things out, you'll discern what is correct.

Babe, keep going. Keep pushing. Keep believing. There are still AMAZING and DIVINE opportunities lined up for your life. Just keep in mind that there will be doors that won't open because they aren't meant to be open. Keep in mind that life changes and moves rapidly, even if we don't want it to.

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." Anatole France

xo,
Lily

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